Is this natural? need advice healinjg from an abusive relationship?

in my old relationship my x made me feel TERRIBLE about trying to date other guys/the amount of guys i had tried to date. now i feel bad whenever any relationship turns sexual. even tonight all the guy did was rub outside my pants, and rub under my bra and i feel HORRIBLE about it, dirty and discusting and i just want to cry. should i feel bad about dating other guys/starting something sexual AT ALL before we are official? i dont know what to think because i feel like everything i think is screwed, what is your opinion on this? thanks.Is this natural? need advice healinjg from an abusive relationship?
look into therapy...

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